Always follow your heart

Since last year I didn’t have a great year I decided that I want this year to be amazing. Not only with my ordinary life but in school too. Since the grades that college asks are from junior and senior year, most of the time. I wanted to have great grades this year. On my first bimonthly term I had good grades not the best I can do, but they were good. Then on the second bimonthly term I had bad grades, I didn’t do any effort to have my grades better. Instead I fail a lot of classes and was worried. But the worry time didn’t last too much time because by my third bimonthly term I didn’t study, I didn’t do anything productive and I fail again and this time with lower grades. Now in my last term I did have to put a lot of effort in a lot of classes and I know I have to have high grades if I want to get to my senior year. At least I know two of my classes that were in risk I know for sure that I am going to pass with any trouble, then the other one is in risk, and the other one I will have to stay during my vacations taking a course. I hate the idea of missing one moth of my vacations because I didn’t do the only thing I have to do, study. It is really irritating the idea and I really don’t like it but that the consequence of being lazy the entire year, and this is the first year I will have to take that course. It’s really disappointing and frustrating  because I wanted this year to be the greatest one, the one I will show my teachers, my friends and family that I can do my best and I can do whatever I want to do because I know I can I am just a lazy person who didn’t fight for what I want.  I can say this year has been amazing, I am having the time of my life, not even school ruin it, but yes I do ruin my goals and my dreams, my desire of being the best I can.  This has been a year I will never forget, I have created so many special moments that will be in my heart forever. And I know that I will have to work hard if I want at least to be a senior next year, but I know I can do it. Now for next year I know I will have to work hard to have good grades, not only good but the best grades. I want to show to my parents and the people who think that I am not intelligent, that I am lazy and all I want to do its party, that I can be a great student and still party hard. Next year is my senior year, the most important year of all. Since the first day I will do my best effort and focus on my grades because even though I will go out a lot and I will have a better year than this one, I have to focus and be responsible for school. I cannot let the year pass me by and the last few months worry because I may not graduate. I know that won’t happen to me. I will try to do my best all the time so I can have high grades, not only because of my own satisfaction but because it is really important for college and even more if you are going away from Guatemala, in my case, Paris. I think it’s really important to always settle down for a while and think about what you are doing and where you want to go, because I can see a lot of people doesn’t care about the college applications and next an everything, but I do and I will work hard to get the best grades next year because my final goal is leave this city and get in Le Cordon Bleu College and study there and create more memories and experience to come back and make my dream come true.