I will always remember you

I will always remember you.. Some complicated words huh? Some words that have a lot of meanings and most of the time some painful moments. I will always remember my grandma her names was Marcela, my parents didn’t named me Marcela because of her, but I know we had a special bond. I was her first granddaughter, so she was really excited with me. We used to spent a lot of time together, when I was just a baby she always take care of me, she loved spending time with me and when my parents go out she was the first person to say that she wanted to take care of me. I cannot remember all of the times we spent together when I was a little kid, because I can’t remember much of it, but I know she loved to take me to the beach and also to horse rides. My grandma and my aunts always tell about a story that they enjoyed a lot. The story is that one sunny day my parents went out, so they decided that I was going to be a “model” and they were going to take a lot of pictures of me with different clothes. Since I was the new baby, the new toy of the family the way they entertain was with me. So they took my whole closet out and start changing me and taking pictures of me when they were done and tired they sat down to see the pictures when they saw that there was no memory card in it so they didn’t take any picture. My grandma used to laugh a lot with this story. She loved to come and visit us, she always called me “my little princess” and after having more grandsons, I know I was her favorite. The last couple of years our relationship changed because she decided that she wanted to live somewhere else so she moved to Xela. I can say I missed her a lot because I couldn’t get to see her really often. Then one day everything change, one day our complete family decided that we wanted to see her, all her sons and daughters with her kids and family. We all go because she was really sick, she had diabetes, one of the most horrible diseases and she didn’t do the treatment very well.  So we all go took the trip around Guatemala, since we were on vacations, and finally get to her house. We spent the whole day over there and around 5pm we left because my family and I we were travelling in airplane so it was getting late. When I say goodbye for the last time I sit on her legs, hug her very tight, kiss her forehead and tell her I love you and I will see you soon. We left and then we arrived in Guatemala City, since we were really tired we all go to bed right away. At 7am my father wake me up and told me that my mother and him will go, that I didn’t have to worry that they will come back for my brother and me. I was really nervous I didn’t knew what was going on, so I told him to tell me the truth, and In the instant that he said “your grandma pass away, I am really sorry” I just couldn’t believe it and the tears all of sudden start falling. I just run to my mother and hug her, I knew my mother was devastated so I try to be strong but It was really difficult. They explained to my brother and I that she had a heart attack and there was nothing left to do, but I was so confused 12 hours before I was with her and she was alive. I didn’t want to cry so I was waiting and waiting but the next day ways the day of the burial and in the moment I knew that was going to be the last time I was going to see my grandma I collapse and I cried for days. As time has passed I know she will be with me here in my heart and I will always remember her as the splendid person she was. 

R.I.P. Marcela Veliz Samayoa 

Always follow your heart

Since last year I didn’t have a great year I decided that I want this year to be amazing. Not only with my ordinary life but in school too. Since the grades that college asks are from junior and senior year, most of the time. I wanted to have great grades this year. On my first bimonthly term I had good grades not the best I can do, but they were good. Then on the second bimonthly term I had bad grades, I didn’t do any effort to have my grades better. Instead I fail a lot of classes and was worried. But the worry time didn’t last too much time because by my third bimonthly term I didn’t study, I didn’t do anything productive and I fail again and this time with lower grades. Now in my last term I did have to put a lot of effort in a lot of classes and I know I have to have high grades if I want to get to my senior year. At least I know two of my classes that were in risk I know for sure that I am going to pass with any trouble, then the other one is in risk, and the other one I will have to stay during my vacations taking a course. I hate the idea of missing one moth of my vacations because I didn’t do the only thing I have to do, study. It is really irritating the idea and I really don’t like it but that the consequence of being lazy the entire year, and this is the first year I will have to take that course. It’s really disappointing and frustrating  because I wanted this year to be the greatest one, the one I will show my teachers, my friends and family that I can do my best and I can do whatever I want to do because I know I can I am just a lazy person who didn’t fight for what I want.  I can say this year has been amazing, I am having the time of my life, not even school ruin it, but yes I do ruin my goals and my dreams, my desire of being the best I can.  This has been a year I will never forget, I have created so many special moments that will be in my heart forever. And I know that I will have to work hard if I want at least to be a senior next year, but I know I can do it. Now for next year I know I will have to work hard to have good grades, not only good but the best grades. I want to show to my parents and the people who think that I am not intelligent, that I am lazy and all I want to do its party, that I can be a great student and still party hard. Next year is my senior year, the most important year of all. Since the first day I will do my best effort and focus on my grades because even though I will go out a lot and I will have a better year than this one, I have to focus and be responsible for school. I cannot let the year pass me by and the last few months worry because I may not graduate. I know that won’t happen to me. I will try to do my best all the time so I can have high grades, not only because of my own satisfaction but because it is really important for college and even more if you are going away from Guatemala, in my case, Paris. I think it’s really important to always settle down for a while and think about what you are doing and where you want to go, because I can see a lot of people doesn’t care about the college applications and next an everything, but I do and I will work hard to get the best grades next year because my final goal is leave this city and get in Le Cordon Bleu College and study there and create more memories and experience to come back and make my dream come true.